I didn’t always have the time for the life I wanted. Working a corporate job and living in the city gets old fast, and being Superwoman can’t last forever. When I struggled to conceive with my husband, it made me reconsider a lot of things about my life. When our first cycle of IVF was successful, I was elated and promptly fell in love with my unborn daughter.
The thing about pregnancy and motherhood, is that nobody tells you how much your identity changes when you are responsible for someone other than yourself, and you have this tiny being that relies entirely upon you for nourishment, care, advocacy and more. She needed me, and the shift from Tracey to Mum was initially a tough one. I sought counselling to help me through. After my counselling, I began to rebuild. As a family, switched lanes, got out of the city and my husband, daughter and I moved out into the countryside, where we now have a 20 acre farm, with a herd of beautiful Wiltshire Horn sheep. It doesn’t get much better than lambing season, bottle feeding all the babies, and we are also cultivating our own orchard which I’m really enjoying.